Abschiedsbrief
My Winter Love,
2 months I could remember you and your attention genießen.Ich me like the evening in October when I was your cry for help vernahm.Ich so insecure and my mind raced to the one and the same question : Can I really trust a stranger? I just did it and it was the right decision in my life.
I wrote to you, you answered and at the beginning it was a simple conversation, to know each other lernen.Dann to at some point you trusted me it an.Du had a heart defect and not much Zeit.ES hit me hard and did not know how I react sollte.Ich had to go, I was shaking, I was bad-I never thought that a single word so much in me könnte.Wir trigger exchanged phone numbers with the promise always to call in case of problems today.
calledst The next day you see me then an.Aufgelöst you told me that you had a huge error gemacht.Die tablets that your death out you had hesitated in an overdose death eingenommen.Du do if you would not get rid of it. I got tears in his eyes, it could not now but was already over sein.Ich you an advice you followed and didst auf.Zwei hours later we met again in private on einander.Du said, I saved your life, but there were du.Ich had said something meaningless, you were running it.
hours we talked and exchanged poems and lyrics, our addresses, interests, opinions and Gefühle.Bis anbrach.Müde the morning we said goodbye to each other and went schlafen.Oder better: You could not schlafen.Ich walked, you walked me out of my head and I do not want to to in a few hours warten.Ich managed to forget the time and one day it was again another soweit.Ein Treffen.Aber was something wrong with dir.Du began with an apology and already there I got Angst.Du my test, it is asking too much of me to feel as much as du.Langes silence occurred, and then finally said the Aufklärung.Du 'I love you' and wanted from me was verabschieden.Ich up nicht.MIt a 'WAIT' I gained again at your Aufmerksamkeit.Ich himself was crying and did not know what to say gab.War love it? Was love to go when you wanted to tell me not to charge? exactly what I said to dir.Kleinlaut you asked me whether I now hate würde.Ich I could not resist a laugh, you're too süß.Ich told you that I do not even wüsste.ob what I felt for you and still feel really love ist.Ich promised you that you are the would be the first who would know the answer. And again we went
es.Alles exchanged from: favorite songs, music, pictures ... Yes, I remember mich.Ich was afraid, to you my pictures zeigen.Würde it with the 'love' aprubt be over?
'sweet', was your comment to me and when I saw your picture, I had to grinsen.Du schön.Zwar really were you would never have knnen a modeling contract, but your charisma, your warm eyes did forget it.
by our appearance, we came to the subject Optik.Was went at all? Inside I was hoping that you would take it easy, that I stand at all men over 40 konnte.Leider you asked after the Grund.Davor I had Angst.Wie would you react if you knew that I am not so 'pure' am, as you might think? However, I told you, even if I was typing through my hard ZIttern.Bisher I had no one except my mother, my best friends and said the best friend of my mother that I was raped at age 7.
shocked you responded, but your behavior towards me changed nicht.Immernoch you were kind, loving and affectionate.
you have to go, which suited me very well, because I would have to go because we see someone würden.In the 7 hours that was gone, I could not pass up went out of my brain and also the verbannen.Aber you surprised me very much when you were not there, you had promised it to me.
I waited ... waited ... wartete.2 weeks I had no idea where you stecktest.Bis the call the phone appeared kam.Auf your number, but you were not tuned, but your Mutter.Du were in the hospital . The heart defect verschlimmert.Sie had promised me that you would call if it was going to get better. It was not
besser.Gestern 2 Briefe.Einer came from a friend and one of your Mutter.Vorgestern are you remember gestorben.Ich me of a phrase that you once said. "Fate is a traitor." I had laughed at it and not agreed, because after I had by fate now getroffen.Aber shows that you right is simply unfair and hattest.Es verletzend.Mit you is my faith and the only person who has loved me with my errors gone.
I love you.
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